On Monday's I usally sing in Times Square to make aomw extra cash or I hope open mics and support fellow singers band nights. Oh but this Monday I had my own gig! GIGITTY! I was invited to join a show called Diva, hosted by this amazing singer namec Marty at a club called "Industry"! The house performers on this particular night were 3 Broadway pros! One of which I had coincindetly started following earlier this year on twitter by the name of Lisa Rame. She rocks a natural mohawk! LOVE HER! But this night was full of surpises.
​ When I I walked in I heard my name called from a familiar face. It was Vince! (he sings) And he told me that Darius was on the way! These guys I met from being at Ashford & Simpsons Sugar Bar for these last 3 years. Honestly as much as I advertise my events I learned long ago not to expect anyone to show up. Don't misinderstand though. I do have friends here that come to shows but it was even hard to get family back home to even come out even if I was in their neighborhood. So I was so happy to see them! The show was short and I was up, second set.
I sang "Im Every Woman and Bang Bang. WHAT WAS I THINKING? I forget that breathing is still a problem and I should not be trying to dance. SMH I ran out of breath on a few lines and almost passed out on Bang Bang but the crowd had no idea. The crowd went wild for my performance! They tipped me! I got money on the stage! Some guy handed me a 20! Ok, now I know how Drag Queens feel! Did I mention that this place was a very gay hotspot? I live! As much as thos gemini loves attention on stage, I waa in hog heaven! People were dancing in front of the stage! One person gpt to carried away and had to be shood away because "she" was trying to steal my shine. Lol I had a ball! Oh wait! I didn't tell you the biggest shock of the night!
During the break of act 1, a fight broke out! Some drunk guy called the bouncer "Nigger"! There were quite a few people outside smoking when it happened. (Not me) The amazing thing is that the guy at the door didn't have to move one muscel. All the white gays outside beat up the heckler! (Also white) They told him that he will not use that kind of language in here! LOL They really beat him up and his friends put him in a cab tto shew hom off to safety. The guy kept trying to fight the crowd. Smh. BUT, all in all it was an amazing night! LOVE WINS AND MUSIC RULES!

Over the last year I have slowly gained all the weight i lost during dialysis. I thought I was in the clear you know, home free and healthy! I was,so wrong. I ended up in Back School for back problems since i wasnt moving around a lot. You know the saying "if you dont have no money, then you should stay home"? I live by that! LOL So, i was home a lot besides constant doctors appointments and gigs. But the gigs picked up and so did I.
I have been able to say `"`BOOKED" all this year plus I traveled! All the while gaining the lbs. Now, I haven't been over eating (I don't think) but I can not exercise! Every time i have worked out body reacted abnormally. At first all I did was walking arounf NYC and that is work. I built up the strength in my legs and butt. I was proud of myself for it. My stamina was better but the asthma got worse. I am on regular asthma treatment now. All is well right? Wrong.

1. Just over a month ago I got hit with another episode of rhabdomyolysis. This time it attacked all the nice firm muscles I had in my legs and butt leaving me weak and off centered sometimes. I am waiting to get surgery done for weight loss and this has pushed me away from my weight loss goals for surgery. The doctor says I can only work out for 5 minutes at a time. Smh Who does that? It is driving me crazy because I want to do more. Believe it or not, I like to sweat. Now if I work out for even 30 min my legs swell and I cant walk for 2 or 3 days. I will feel weak and light headed too. Being sick sucks!
   
2. I miss other peoples shows and events a lot and I am sure they think Im a liar for not coming. Some days I really just can not leave my apartment because either I'm having a rough breathing day or my legs are not working right. No one can tell from looking at me and I hide it very well. My grandma always said "never look like what youre going through" and I live by it. When it comes to my own gigs I spend days if possible gathering my strength and then I give it my all. No one knows how i suffer the days that follow. Dont get me wrong, I am not complaining at all. I would and will give this musical life all that I have. I just wish I had more to give because I know that I have much more to do.