Good morning!  I woke up in a cube with no ceiling, staring at the roof. I can't say I moved on up. Rather I moved on over. Let me back up.
   After I left the VA with my transfer papers and other instructions I headed back to base for some unfinished business on their part and to pack. As I get there I'm told the lady that needed to process me out was in a meeting. I knew I would need a ride to the new place so I went and packed so I would be ready. this was maybe 3pm. After a while went by I checked again and they said to come see her after dinner which ends at 5:30 so I did. I then find out that she had gone for the day and I had to wait for the counselor. She took her time till around 8ish. I kept coming to her and she kept putting me off till she called me. smh When she did,  I had all my paperwork ready. Why did she have no idea that I was transferring, nor that I needed a ride. The supervisor told her nothing! Because they were short staffed and she couldn't drive (typical New Yorker) I would have to take the bus. She offered me bus passes to get there. Thanks? I was not in the mood for that heaven duffle bag and tote. I left without the passes since I have my own card and didn't want a thing from them. I was pissed! As I walked a block to the bus and the weight of stuff pulled on my already drained body,  I decided, screw this!  The bus was late and I was tired so I hailed a cab! (Thanks to your donations)  I decided to not take the hour long hard way. I was pleased to see it only cost $17! I tipped him $3. Was not impressed with this warehouse set up or the area it was placed. I felt like I was going to work. The inside looked a bit dirty and their are men here on the other side. The drunks were a bit distasteful. :-/ I'm at the vet place.
But I have my own sleeping quarters in the women's wing and it's kinda
peaceful. No roof on the rooms means I hear every freaking thing but No one can touch my foot. LOL They have out rules here so I can't be back in my room till 4:30 and out at 9:30. Good thing I hustle all day! Headed out to try out for Hair Spray! 
**UPDATE **
This new station is cleaner than the ones in Brooklyn. Looks like they pressure washed it. The pic of the stairs in 42 and Times Square. yall know my outter fat girl and my inner skinny girl both wanted to cry. smh only 3 stops and I'm there!
***UPDATE ***
NO HAIR NO SPRAY! how I managed to do it again idk. Hair Spray is August 5, next Tuesday. smh So I signed up for what's here. omg I need a monologue in like 30 min! Bye! 
****UPDATE ****
omg As they keep calling names one by one my gut squeezes, I'm getting gassy and I'm thirsty.

*UPDATE * I promise yall my butt is dead. I've been sitting here forever!  I hope I get picked for one of these shows! I earned it off stamina alone!

So, I'm the stinky kid in the room. When I packed my clothes for this audition I didn't realize the dress hadn't been washed yet. I'm stuck on the corner giving myself a headache. smh. it's 3:36 and I've been here since 8:30 am! CALL MY NAME!!

*********UPDATE *********UPDATE *****

I waited from 8:30 to 5:30 pm just to be told that they won't be accepting non union auditions!  I was most definitely in my feelings so I went downstairs and left. I decided to treat myself and eat a good hot meal and get a drink and Fridays was three steps away! So I had a blue burger, fries, some orange cream malt with somebody's liquor in it and Brownie Madness!  Full, a Lil tipsy I walked to the subway about 14 minuet away and regretted eating so much. I haven't had that much food at one time in months. smh Almost fell down the not moving escalators once and then steps once but made it back to my station. And no I wasn't drunk, I'm just really bad with stairs plus I am tired.

As soon as I get back to my ceilingless room I shower off my day. I was looking for a bit of happiness thinking Scandal was coming back on tonight. nope! As I'm on the phone talking to Nicole (my great friend) I get an email. Somehow it was open yet I don't remember doing so. (exhausted passed my fingers) It reads; We would love to bring you in for the role of PAULETTE in LEGALLY
BLONDE on Norwegian Cruise Line.

Thursday August 7, 2014
3:45 PM.

OMG! YES! I must prepare for the next few days! STARTING NOW! GOOD NIGHT WORLD!

Good morning! First I gotta say, did you notice the pic from yesterday selling gold teeth? HA!
I got up feeling good about going to audition for "She Loves Me". I got dressed and went to the roof to warm up. That's when I heard it. There will be no  auditioning today. The sound could barely come past my tonsils and when it did my sinuses blanketed the rest. But I can breath fine? I can feel the lump in my throat when I sing. I need to see ENT!  Now it's operation Medicare. Fix it!

***UPDATE***
Since I couldn't sing I decided to take care of more business. I'm at yet another VA office to get assistance. The best idea yet! Even though I've been here all day I feel great. The staff here is so helpful. Even more so than GA!  I'm fixing or beginning to fix issues from years back! Righting a lot of wrongs today. I think what I got today was better than an audition. I'm getting moved to a Vet place on Long Island today. I here its nice. I hope the place I'm in will give me a ride. I don't want the travel blues.

I actually got up before the old ladies!  omg 5:30 isn't my style anymore. I figured I would eat breakfast and get ready for my first audition of the week.  They served the basest of oatmeal, and cheerios. I sucked down the oats and rolled out! I'm reading these street signs for my life now. lol smh Got on the right train, wrong direction again. I think it's my thing now. Easy enough to fix a the next stop. Head back toward Times Square and see NEW YORK TIMES for the first time!  I wonder if they give tours?  So I head to Equity, go upstairs and show my ID. The lady asks which one I'm auditioning for and I draw a blank, whip out my phone and calendar only to see I didn't write the title down,  and mixed up auditions in my head. I have two tomorrow!  "She Loves Me" I thought was today. smh There are others I can audition for but I'm not monologue confident yet. That is my only weakness. That scares me for some reason. I pretend a lot, sing a lot but act very little. Time to go back and work on it!

So...because I can't keep still I left and went exploring for dinner. Thanks to donations I don't have to eat that shelter food! (which raised my blood pressure)  I encountered a lady selling purses! I asked hoe much for the black and brown one she says $35. I say thanks and walk away, she says ok, $10. lol Now, I like cheap as well as the next person but ummm. That doesn't sound like long lasting stuff. My stuff is heavy. As I walked away she says "what kinda game you playing at"? lol Me? lol I told her I just wanted a price. I had a avocado smoothie from a new place!  I felt healthy just knowing it was avocado and fresh. It was a short stay because I had been waiting for the counselor at the shelter all freaking day! So I went back. it's now 10:00 pm and I just left her desk. Good thing I found the roof. Now I have a place to practice and not disturb people. Note to self, don't try to go on the roof when the red door is closed. The alarm is loud. Maybe if a fireman comes I'll get a date?! lol good night world!

I can't thank you all enough! Thanks to you I stayed at a Hostel for almost a week, can get good food and handle minor issues that may pop up. I am not alone on this journey and it makes it easier to bear. I LOVE IT! I was made for New York and the Big stage! we will celebrate together one day! 

Why do old people get up at the butt crack of dawn? I figured why fight it. Im hungry anyway so at least I can catch breakfast!  As I'm one of the few left in the room getting dressed, loud mouth on the end starts complaining about the noise I'm making. Saying Im disturbing the lady with a heart problem (who's asleep beside her bed) and I must think I'm bad because I'm big. She said if I had a problem she had a 38 outside waiting for me. Really?  :-/ I dodt even respond to any of her foolishness. I go downstairs to eat and wouldn't you know it, I missed breakfast!  Sommama Bitch! I'll just eat at the VA hospital when I get there.
I got off the train. All the right ways!!! Now I'm on the bus going the wrong way. smh

*UPDATE*
Leaving the VA isnt as easy as I thought. I can't find the same bus going back so I got on the 32. Driver says not to worry,  then he parks for 12 minutes. He doesn't know I need to charge my phone. I can't wait to get back and study this great music Gerald is sending me!
**UPDATE **
As soon as I get off the bus at my destination,  my purse strap brakes. You know, the part that goes over my shoulder. I don't trip. I know where Chinatown is! Right when I'm about to. cross the street to the subway I see a place I was told to get shoes from. Models! I ain't trying to spend shoe money so I got the next best thing, inserts! Omg it feels so good! Soft, cushioned warm goodness!  Now that I'm in a frugal mindset, forget that purse! I'll just use the short handles (which I hate)  and clean it out to lighten the load. After walking with my arm crooked up to hold it I regretted the decision but I gotta boo boo so I'm going back to the shelter.
I relied on GPS again to get back and guess what?! I got off on Classon a few days ago when I was lost. Turns out, it WAS the right exit! I just didnt know the neighborhood well enough to know it was down the other side of two blocks. smh lol Now I'm off to prepare for tomorrow's auditions!

Good morning!  Ok ok, last night I had to laugh at myself. There are 10 to a room and I'm with a lot of old ladies. It's 1am so of course they're all sleep but I'm up, charging my phone and folding laundry. It's dark in here so I cracked the door for light and as I'm folding I hear an eery sound. Like wheat you hear in scary movies. In the corner of my eye I see movement. I turn an I see a dark figure with long stringy hair slowly,  small step by step walking across the floor. I instantly think of "The Ring" and for a brief moment I'm stunned in panic. Then I had to rationally look at it. lol smh Old lady was going to the bathroom!  She was sleepy so she was shuffling. smh But I still was a bit creeped out. lol I watched her ass go back to her bed and wouldn't get under the covers till she fell asleep. smh Then I heard a loud thump!  In my head I'm like WTH! LOL Someone upstairs must have dropped something. I figured I needed to take my butt to sleep before I give myself a heart attack.
**Update**
It's about 1:35 and I've eaten lunch/breakfast. I was gonna go out and look around but I see it's gonna rain. Since my feet are still swollen from pounding pavement I'm just gonna sit here and learn new songs for auditions.
**UPDATE **
I couldn't do it!  I couldn't stay in! A high school friend invited me for a visit in the Bronx! I'm was like HELLS yeah! Shoot, the swelling in my feet had just went down too! sSHOOOOOT! I saw some performers on the train. It's something about Spanish music that makes me want to dance! I Enjoyed myself. It envolved a lot of train hoping but I didn't get lost! I went to her job, had a nice chicken salad Sammich and talked and laughed. It was a cool furniture store. Nothing like Ikea,  which scares me. (anxiety)
It's funny how you can connect with someone who you were only peripherally around and still feel close many years later. Janissa can sing and write! Who new?! I didn't. smh We made good plans to work together. I'm glad. I didn't get lost! u didn't get lost! I DIDN'T GET LOST! shocked?  I was too. Made it back before curfew, barely. But had a great day!

My day started with some loud old lady poking my foot, talking bout "excuses Me" like she fell. Old bitch pls! She was just being nosey and wanted to see who was in the bed by the door. I tried to go back to sleep but her loud but kept talking so I was out. I hurried out to go get the rest of my bags at the hostel.
I'm so not yet a New Yorker!  I took the right train going in the wrong direction, TWICE!  I had to readjust because after that I got on the wrong train and had to reroute again  but made it back to a Chinatown!  Going back should be easier since I found out how to connect trains!

Aaaah,  NO! I have spent the entire day under New York! I forgot which stop on the G train,  I started out on. The G train partially shut down for maintenance and forced us to use a shuttle. That did not help me. :-( So I call the main office of the shelter people for direction. A lady gives me info on where to go. I went. SHE SENT ME TO A MALE SHELTER!  I'm beyond pissed!  Mind you, I am carrying my heavy bags! My duffle bag was digging into my shoulders and I keep hitting the back of my leg with the carry on, my feet were hurting too. My old broken foot was acting up. :-(  So I get the idea to go to the G train and get off at every one of them before the closure to see if on looks familiar. 4 hours later I decide to call the place that sent me to the new place in the firdt place because the main office wouldn't answer anymore of my calls. I called and got sent to someone's voice mail. I called again and she sent me to another person's phone that she knew wasn't at work. I tried to get her to just give me the phone number or address to where I was supposed to go but she stopped answering the phone!

I decided to go therein person to yesterday's place. I called her again when I got close to the building to try again to get the info I needed She acts like she doesn't understand what Im asking her and tells me I should come in. I told her I was on the street already and walking in.
I get in and security had her come out.  She acts like she wasn't the one I talked to but she's the only one there. :-/ After I went over it again she goes and gets me the address. It was sprinkling when I got there so I told her I will wait out the rain and be on my way. She says "rain won't hurt nobody, you can get wet ". I wanted to through that bitch out the door. I kept quiet and left. It had stopped sprinkling. I look at the directions and was so mad at myself. I had passed that stop so many times! It wasnt the G train but the C but it was 38 minutes away! I get to the station and of course, I get on the right bus but wrong direction. Had to walk up a block and get the right bus. The driver took me right outside the door. (I looked awful). What did I learn? Ask the drivers and ask the booth people for directions. good night world!

My day was so bad yesterday that the blog refused to post anything but the picture. I was a little upbeat about signing out of the Hostel and into the shelter. Operation save my money was about to kick off! I pulled our my phone and GPSed my destination and started walking. After 20 minutes I started getting irritated because I didn't see the bus stop I was looking for.GPS said turn right at the block so I had. That bitch lied! the stop was actually to the left and at the corner from where I started.  I brushed it off and carried on with the train directions.I be damned if that bitch did it to me again! I sent me 30 minute walk but the street was on the next 2 corners from the subway! OMGS! So I went looking for the building once I was on the street but the address didn't exist. I asked a guy in one building and he sent me back to the street where the subway was. So I went looking and that didn't exist either!  I'm like DAMN! Then another guy sent me back to the street I thought it was on. Found a government building with a Vet rep! They got me in the right direction!  Turns out I used the right address. Smdh. What was supposed to be a 39 minute trip turned into 2 hours.
So I finally get there and there's no bed available. So the case worker asks me if I can go up 6 flights of stairs. You can imagine my Face. I said "hell no! I got bad knees, 80lbs of luggage and all this body. ChILD NO! lol So she says I have to wait for a place with an elevator! 

That was at 4. At midnight I get put on a shuttle to another place in Brooklyn. And by 2am I was given a bed. But while I was waiting,  a nice crazy girl gets herself put out. She was screaming "God is gonna curse your family!  Watch around you, people are gonna get sick! Don't mess with his child! I'm his child. Karma is a bitch!  Where's my transfer?!  Where's my bus?" This went on for about 4 minutes then she meekly comes back to their Window and asks for a supervisor. Talk about Dr. Jeckle!  That went on till the police came. smh Welcome to the shelter life.

I decided to stop at a very affordable hot do place and was not disappointed. Grays Papaya, Omgs!  so good! So, I get to Sugars and sit in the same place for about 10 min when I was asked to get up because it was reserved. I stared in disbelief. He told me I could sit upstairs. Now, I don't know nothing about this place so I was immediately annoyed and insulted. How could there not be signs?  How could they let me sit for so long?  I had to go outside and vent on the phone, I was all in my feelings. I didn't want to go upstairs and sit alone. Of course I did go up eventually. And I like it. The open mic has begun!  I go downstairs to sign up and guess who I see? Mrs. SIMPSON FROM ASHFORD & SIMPSON herself!  Can you say GEEKED?!  FAINT
**UPDATE **
I sang Patti Labelle's If Only You Knew" and got a standing O! Mrs. Simpson was upstairs so when I got to the top of the stairs she starts yelling, get in here, come here"! And everyone up there applauds and cheers! I got hugs and compliments!  That's when I finally got the nerve to ask to take a picture. Tonight was a good night.

I actually got it on time!  Only 5 hours of sleep, or less. The air was a bit warm and humid as I left for the B train in my flip flops. I was smart enough to leave my heels in my purse. Rain won't get me again because I strapped my umbrella to my purse, ditched my big bag and only brought my attaché with audition info.
As I look around at the other ladies here I noticed that the black ladies are more fresh faced so I'm wiping off this pretty lip. Book of Mormon probably don't need all this luscious lip. lol Why am I the only one wearing pants?  So far, each time I've come here to Equity,  they are all wearing dresses. Stay tuned!
*UPDATE *
I auctioned!  it was only 6 of us. Apparently The Book of Mormon passes people off and few people audition. I have no religious ties so it doesn't bother me at all! there will be another one next week and I'm coming to that one too!
I audition for Mary Poppins next at 11!
***UPDATE ***
Dresses! I need to pull out the one I have. I also have to find an iron. lol So,  the audition called for me to have A similar to the show and have an English accent. I had no such song on hand no I had I practice since I had nothing to work with. I pulled out the only song close to soothing and it was all at once by Whitney Houston n and I sung it with English accent. After I finished, the piano player  said to me that he had never heard anyone saying it that way before and he laughed. I told him neither had I, first time for both of us and I laughed. The only person I was audition for also laughed.  halfway thru the song I was singing my voice started shaking which hasn't happened to me since high school. I must say it was the most interesting audition ever given. If they called me back I'm going to laugh my face off.