Good morning! I had a good rehearsal with Janissa last night for the gig this weekend. She even fed me meatloaf, broccoli and shells and cheese! I haven't had a home cooked meal in a very long time. It felt good to be in a home surrounded by her family. Her kids are very smart and sociable. We didn't stay out late but I'm still tired.
I woke up on time but moved so slowly that I got out the building late, like 9:30, the same time auditions start. It is getting chilly here and I'm wearing a sleeveless dress. I have never worn it before and I needed something new to audition in. I must say that I look GOOD! LOL As soon as I walked up to sign in I was put on the next line to go in! I was barely ready. I'm standing in line, scrambling to put the sheet music in order and decide if I'm going to sing 32 bars or two 16 bars of different songs. I was fortunate enough to have a chance to print new music before I left the shelter. One of the counselors let me use his pc. The girl in front of me goes in and I'm on edge a bit. I didnt have time to really warm up. Yesterday my voice started going out on me and I don't know what to expect.
The good thing is, I didn't start on the wrong not or key! I'm still not happy about my sound. Its very chesty and unclear, not like it should be at all. The judges were a bit aloof but I saw some notes being taken. Not a bad sign. So now I'm off to see the ENT doctor! I'm headed to catch the M23 bus.
I love when I come out of the subway into a beautiful view of the city! There's even a small park with a Shake Shack in it. As usual the food is expensive, even if it's burgers. A regular meal here will run you $12-15.
I do not like this. He stuck a tube down my nose to see my nasal passages and vocal chords.I wanted to get my tonsils out because I figured that's what's ruining my voice. The Dr says everything looks fine even though my voice changed while we were talking. He increased the dosage of the acid reflux meds I'm already on and decrease the frequency because I won't take it more than once a day. (Im really bad at that). Then he gave me the bad news. He says I can't have the tonsils removed but I am on vocal rest for two weeks. No singing and very little talking. I'm in tears. I feel like he told me I was dying. What will I do for two weeks?! I can't audition or go to open mics! What will I do?! I have no life outside of this! I have rehearsal tonight and tomorrow for the gig Saturday. I have to do it! I have no money and this is my only offer to make money. The Dr. is sending me to a speech pathologist afterwards so I guess that's good. It's bad enough that I've been feeling nauseated all day but now I'm heart broken too.