I'm still riding high off my great news of having a full scholarship but my almost date fell off already. I was so ready to be swept off my feet by a strong New Yorker. I guess Danny will not be the one. Smh. I mean, how do you destroy something before it even starts? Are men that clueless? Have sluts really created that kind of confidence in dudes that make them think they can have it their way? Let me give you the story.
We met that night for coffee and he invited me over for a movie. Of course I declined. Told him I wasn't comfortable with that and I like to take things slowly. (shouldn't have had to say that) . The next day while I'm at work, he texts good morning. We had very brief texts because I couldn't use my phone while working. After work me and my new roommate Jacob hung out at the Metropolitan Museum of Art because we were both bored at home. Danny texts asking if I wanted to come by his house as friends and watch movies. I told him "not yet. Plus I'm out tonight at the museum". His response wasn't what I expected. He said " Im not trying to fuck you were just friends". This is his actual words I'm copying from the text he sent. I told him, I'm sure, I just can't. His response was " But hey sorry for imposing. Have a wonderful evening". I'm so annoyed at this point. My roommate Jacob tried hard to be on his side but couldn't. Jacob even tried to help me best navigate my response because he could tell I was gonna blow up. He told me to reply that he wasn't imposing. He was. Lol I didn't expect to hear from Danny today as I didn't hear from him last night after being let down. Around 1100 hours he sent the standard morning greeting. He then followed it up with asking me to come watch a movie at his place if I'm up to it later. Wait, what? I feel like I'm in a twilight zone! Ok so at this point there is no more pussy footing around from me. My reply was " I'm not. What I said at Starbucks still stands. If that's not ok with you then we can discontinue contact". He then had the audacity to say that I was being rude! Told me "Bye". WTH! THEN almost three hours later after getting no response from me hits me up with " Hey it's not going to work. But we can be friends . If you like if not take care gorgeous". Really? I dodged a bullet of selfish insanity with this one. Too many times warning flags are waving about a person and we ignore them. "I'll give him/her a chance. Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing. I need to be with someone, might as well be him/her". Screw that! lol I admit that it gets lonely being single. I miss having someone's arms to rest in and hearing a familiar mans voice at the end of the day. I want someone to rub my feet that I don't have to tip afterwards. I miss having someone to cook for or that would surprise me with dinner or gifts. But I will not go against my instincts. It's the one thing I've learned to trust over the years that's always on point. Desperation leads to very bad decisions that will ultimately end you up right back where you were, single or worse, with kids and single. I tell my family and friends the same thing (one day they will listen) a person has to be right for you not forced into it. This guy (like others) is playing a game I'm hip to. I fell for stuff like this in my twenties. I've learned better so I do better. Don't go along with situations that I know I'm not comfortable with in order to make someone else happy.
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April
12/6/2014 05:21:44 pm
Right on..
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