Ups And Frowns

It's been an interesting month.  Not enough to post day to day but none the less it's life. I had an opportunity to open for the R&B singer Case at Milk River in Brooklyn and I've been back to Cafe Wha to sing. The manager never called me back to join the band.  He said it's because I don't hang around enough.  Now he says he has to see me more than my audition. So, what was the audition for? Idk.  There are bigger issues going on.
  Tragedy has struck the Sugar Bar family. The elustrious host of Thursday nights, Andre Smith has past away.  I went to see him before he died but he was in a coma. I sat and sang to him and talked but I don't think he heard me.  Two days later,  he passed on. The shock of it has me dazed. How can I feel so much love for someone I've known so little of a time?  Facebook is full of his face and stories of him. He used to sing back up for Roberta Flack and so many more. I think of the stories he told me when he took me shopping and I miss him. He was good to me because he genuinely cared. He showed true friendship. I really wanted to cook him up one of my fattening breakfasts and hang out more. He was looking into getting me a place in his building.  Such a kind soul and wonderful musical talent.  I can't cry.  my makeup is too pretty. 
  I'm on my way to do Brooklyn's X Factor semi finals. Andre was gonna try to come. . I'm doing Bang Bang by Jessie J. I will perform my heart out tonight in honor of Andre.

UPDATE

IT WAS AWFUL.  The band was too fast and I couldn't slow them down. Background singers didn't know it and I fucked up the rap. Straight toung tied. I've never felt to stupid on stage in my life. Raekwon from Wutang is here tonight and I've embarrassed myself in front of him. The place is packed too! I will probably never show my face here again.